Pages

Tuesday, 10 February 2015

Exhausted

Gonna be very straight forward, no secrets here. It's my blog, my like, my sukak anyways. I feel sleepy. I feel lazy. I feel tired. I don't feel like doing house chores. I don't feel like taking care of the kids. I sometimes hope I'm still single. And young. And surrounded by many many cute boys.

I've been feeling very tired and exhausted recently (no, not pregnant). And I'm not in the mood for blogging already. Reading blogs and commenting? Don't worry, am still reading blogs and commenting in your blogs, right? It's just that I'm not in the mood to blog, that's all.

Here's my routine. Wake up at 5.45am in the morning, feed G. Sit on the sofa, read blogs, comment (sometimes, I read and comment the night before, when I was about to sleep). Shower, wake Kz up, get him ready for school, leave the house at 6.45am, send G to the nursery, leave my condo by 7am, go to work, back by 7pm, vacuum the house, do the laundry, watch some TV, put the kids to bed by 9.30pm, and the cycle goes on. 

I just feel so tired, so exhausted, so sleepy almost everyday. I wish I could take 5 days MC (annual leaves are saved for emergencies) to just sleep and do nothing and house chores done magically on their own with just a finger snap like Mary Poppins or Nanny McPhee.


See my eye bags? Sign of ageing maybe? Or lack of sleep?

52 comments:

  1. Tiredness may be a sign of depression. You need to find joy in all that you do - your work, your family. Everyday routines are the norm in everyone's lives. Accept yours...and appreciate every little blessing that may crop up now and then, no matter how small...like how the rain stops when you want to go out - even that is a blessing - these sure help to make life better and a lot more meaningful.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks for the tip.. Finding joy in what I do, I'll try :)

      Delete
  2. Hi Louiz,

    Hope that you are feeling better now. Lack of motivation? I know how you feel and that's why I go crazy with baking and blogging... LOL!

    Have a good rest... Forget the kids and chores. Go shopping! Spend some $$$ and feel the happiness of retail therapy :D

    Zoe

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. That's what I'm thinking.. Err, I actually want to take MC this Friday and go relax.. *shhhhhh*

      Delete
    2. yay! i seconded ur idea...haha!

      Delete
  3. Maybe take a day off, don't think about anything, go relax yourself...

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Planning.. Thinking.. Maybe this Friday take MC.. *shhhhh*

      Delete
  4. Haih, if don't feel like blogging then don't blog lah, don't stress yourself up for nothing :( .. Actually I think most blogging moms are stay at home moms, you got work one leh, I am amazed that you got time to blog after work + cleaning the house everyday + taking care of the three kids (yes, three).

    If doing something doesn't make you happy anymore, then it is time to not do it anymore..

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. If don't feel like blogging then ok, pause a while, no blogging, yup can do.. But if wana be young again+surrounded by cute boys, this one cannot lor, sigh..

      Delete
    2. aiks....dun be greedy Princess! u can't be young again...everyone else age too...LOL!

      Delete
  5. My routine also repeat every days, felt so sien, nothing interesting also, hahahaha!! My routine is almost same as you leave house by 630am back by 530pm then every day same same......

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Wah we same same wor.. Eh but on weekends you go out kaikai wor... Me stay home only..

      Delete
  6. Work out some solutions. Maybe you can opt not to work and be a full time housewife or get a full/part time maid to help out in the chores, let your kids stayed longer in the nursery..etc. Reduce some of your less important routines like reading blogs. Maybe can do it once in 2 day or something when you are free. I am sure you can work things out.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Like Phong Hong said, this sien feeling comes and goes.. Maybe now I feel sien, then next day back to normal already..

      Delete
  7. Hi Louiz! I have that feeling sometimes too. Just don't want to do anything and just lepak and do nothing. That very sien feeling comes and goes. For you more susah lah as you have more responsibilities but I am sure there are many mothers out there who feel the same at times. Just that nobody dare to say it so frankly like you. I think this kind of feeling is very normal. CNY is coming soon. Maybe you can take a few more days off to relax? Leave the kids with grandma and grandpa for a day or two? I hope you feel better soon. You look thin in the photo, but still cute and pretty. Lost weight kah?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Wah, you said I look thin, I so happy lah !! Nope, didn't lose weight, in fact, gained a little coz I finished 2 jars of pineapple tarts already last week! Errrr, I'm very frank one la, really la, feel so sien la, don't feel like taking care of kids, sometimes I secretly wish I'm young again and many many handsome men come after me la, teehee *chisin*

      Delete
  8. Ur eye bags still boleh tahan...just put on some concealer to hide them...haha! i can't comment much about ur day-life-cycle coz i m not married with kids yet, but i think when they grow up 'soon' and can fend for themselves, u wouldn't have this kinda lifestyle anymore...this is just a temporary phase.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yeah, I told myself too, this is just a passing phase kua.. This sien feeling comes and goes, so maybe it will be gone tomorrow..

      Delete
  9. yalah, just go straight forward to what you want to say lah, no need entry and no need introduction, we know this is your blog, your like your sukak already, haha.. just like who you are lah, got plate say plate, got bowl say bowl, no need to beat around the bush, straight to the point!!! actually you are already very straight to the point jor hor?? hahaha.. actually i am trying to open up an introduction only lah, hehehe~~

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. it comes to a certain time when we can get very tired and feel very exhausted lah.. and that is when you lost the mojo to blog.. i once almost gave up blogging you know?? i only have less than 10 posts in three months.. but later i told myself, i cannot just give up like that, i make myself like what i am doing.. and see now, i am blogging for 9 years already and still here!!

      Delete
    2. i guess your problem is that you are doing the same thing over and over again and everything is so routined.. time to actually have some changes, or a little thing to spice up your life.. be it to make you kelam kabut and even more exhausted.. once you reach the bottom of the valley, you will immediately spring up to the peak.. and of course this is life lah, sure got the ups and downs.. so i always believe whatever it is, it is just a transition and soon it will be over.. just tell yourself, hang on there..

      p/s: you still got two cups of "sam pou cha" you need to drink leh~~ :D

      Delete
    3. muahahahaha!! actually you posted that photo hor, the first thing everyone will notice is not your eye bags lor, but that lady beside you!!! hahahahaha, very funny leh, you put on that glasses and thick lips on here, OMG, that is super hilarious!!! i guess you purposely did that, first to not let everyone see her face, second to distract the attention on you (and your eyebags)?? :D

      Delete
    4. Thanks for your advise wor, I feel much better now.. Yeah, I realize once we reach the bottom of something, then something good will happen back.. Like when G was hospitalized and we haven't bought any insurance (total RM9k), then last last, my company's insurance was able to compensate back the RM9k, and I didn't know my family and kids were covered!

      Oh yeah, regarding my colleague, yep, she looks funny with that thick lips.. I was hesitating whether or not to put that thick lips, coz she looks really weird and funny, so last last, I inserted the thick lips afterall! (to make myself look prettier), hehe..

      Delete
  10. I can feel you mummy, you got 2 boys (plus one big one) and you got to work, sure very tired.
    I sometimes think like you also, feel like leaving everything and go for a vacation alone.

    But erm, that's life, that's woman... We just have to deal with it. I believe you can, we are super woman, hehe!
    Just that when you feel tired/moody, find something you like/enjoy, it's ok to rant/be lazy once a while.
    Hugs!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yep, thanks for your understanding girl.. For the past 2-3 weeks, I really feel like taking MC every week (but I can't), like once a week MC, just to stay at home and do nothing, but I can't..

      Delete
  11. Indeed tiring with kids growing up and got to go work too. Maybe you can just take leave once in a while to rest at home..

    ReplyDelete
  12. You are indeed a super woman. I read your day tasks, I feel tired already. I do like 30% of what you do only and I also feel tired and sien. It is normal to feel like that. When I feel like that, I really go and sleep and do nothing but you have 3 boys to take care of so I can understand it is not easy for you to find time to relax and do nothing for a while. Taking a day off while your boys are not around is a good idea to relax and do nothing.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Like SK said, maybe my life is too routine-ed.. I do the same thing almost everyday..

      Delete
  13. i understand your tiredness and the cycle.. but I guess I'm better (for now) cos I still have a Sunday as a rest day.. but soon.. probably soon I will be like you...

    like suituapui said.. it's a blessings.. so appreciate every little things.. and you'll be happier ;)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think it's a passing phase.. After a while, a week or a month, things will go back to normal I'm sure.. But I secretly wish I'm still young coz I used to have many many suitors those days *shhhh*

      Delete
  14. I cannot pretend to be an expert in advising you about kids but I can understand when one feels down from the mundane daily lifestyle. I think the spouse could be blamed sometimes here for not making a marriage life sweeter and exciting. People who have 6 kids and very long working hours could be happier than us sometimes. Remember, you have suffering in your mind state only and not physical, so it is easier to overcome it. Like you, I also get a bit of shiok & fun reading blogs daily over a nice cup of hot coffee! Adding on, I frequent the gym almost daily to keep my mind and body strong from sagging! Tambah lagi, I try to do 1 hour of prayers everyday to keep my soul safe and happy.

    In short, when there is hope, there is always happiness and encouragement.

    Plan now all your sukak!!! I have friends who take turns with their spouse to jaga anak while they went to party with their sistas or the hubby went drinking & snooker with the guys. You might love the sudden changes. Tell me whether I managed to talk some sense today. Muahahaha

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I like reading your comments, all very informative one.. I appreciate them..
      So you read blogs, drink kopi, go gym and pray everyday to keep you going.. I pulak read blogs, rant to colleagues, rant to hubby, but still doing the same thing everyday.. Like SK said, maybe my life is too routine-ed already, and maybe getting a bit boring.. I agree with you when you said the spouse is blamed for not pampering me enuff.. Let me go back and show him your comment, and see what he says.. Thanks TM!

      Delete
  15. I like you too, very tired lately. Maybe all those running and lack of afternoon naps tired me out. And I am 24 hours full time mum without hubby around most of times. And even he is around (he is now), he is also busy with work and need go to office when he is on leave. Sigh!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I can imagine your tiredness, with 3 kids somemore.. Same here, hubby works half day on Saturday, hou sien.. Normally most ppl like weekends, but to me, I do more on weekends than working days.. Well just my hormones maybe, passing phase, whatever *rant*

      Delete
  16. Louiz! You are not alone..!! I am ALSO tired.. been running up and down like a mad dog... and the house is still not clean up yet... still got another week before it is CNY.. got to dust my house up one of these days...

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Kan? Sometimes hou sien.. All I wana do is not eat or kaikai or go buy branded stuff, not even money falling from the sky.. I JUST want to take mc, sit on the couch, do nothing, sleep and eat 10 Big Macs!

      Delete
  17. I think you need a vacation! :D

    It's a good thing CNY is coming up, but then it could be stressful for you if you have an open house (we're not having one this year coz my mom just passed away) so maybe you can have 1 ME DAY where you pretend you're not home and just chill for the whole day. It really helps!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. We don't have open house, but the in laws are coming on day3, and I'm cooking.. So, still stressful, hehe..

      Delete
    2. Nice! A lot of houses are cooking this year, I was so stuff eating from house to house and went to my friend's house three days in a row to eat! :)

      Delete
  18. V-Day coming soon. Maybe go for Ossoto spa like TM. sure will get pamper kao kao and rejuvenate again leh. Take care la. dont over stress. CNY nearby jor

    ReplyDelete
  19. I can totally relate to you. Please share if you have finally succeeded to find a way to kick off the tiredness.. I could use some tips too.

    My first time reading your blog and I enjoyed it. Keep blogging.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Elo elo mommyoftoo, nice meeting you.. Oh yeah, secretly, I wish I'm still single, used to have many many suitors, like 5 in a month ?? *ahem*

      Delete
  20. I know, working mom isn't easy, especially your two boys are still so young. It is just a stage, I am going through, and now still alive and kicking. Kanbateh.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yeah yeah, with the boys so young, go where also have to think twice, pack twice.. Can't do much, if I want to do personal stuffs like colour my hair, etc, I gotta take MC, ooops... *shhhhh*

      Delete
  21. You sound like you are suffering from depression! Hope you are much better now! :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Depression ahh? Not depression la, passing phase only I think.. Now I feel normal pulak..

      Delete
  22. Maybe you just need some time away. Vacation!

    ReplyDelete
  23. I am exhausted with my work as well and I am really looking forward to change wallpaper of my house so that I can have a different atmosphere and relax.

    ReplyDelete