The OPK Playing Me

I am a POAS addict, I could not help but pee'ed on them again last night as I still have a few more cheapies to spare. The second line immediately appeared and gave me a dark positive in no time! Usually the second line takes longer time to appear, and usually faint. But last night, result line was same colour with the test line!

I have read countless of times in the internet that the opk could detect hcg. If opk turns out to be positive when AF is due, chances are it will be a BFP. And I've read countless of times people found out about their BFP through the opk first.

Anyway, I am not putting any hopes for a BFP this month, because I just know I am not pregnant. I tested with a clearblue on 10dpo, and it was a BFN! I pee'ed on my opk, almost faint+evaporated line. So there, I can confirm I'm not pregnant.

I've lost hope and is certain AF will show up this week. But why now a dark positive on the opk?

Routine Weekend

Feels like it is already a routine every weekend: Eating out on Friday after work (sometimes no, depends), grocery shopping, visit in laws, make some ice lollies and steam a cake for supper on Saturday, bring Kz to the pool and cook "no-rice" dishes for dinner on Sunday.

Anyway, attempted to cook hokkien mee yesterday for dinner. It turned out well. Yummy. Before I continue more on yesterday, I will start with Friday night, after work. We went to the same Taiwanese restaurant for dinner. Hubs had the beef steamboat with rice, I had noodles with shredded meat and vegetables. We called an additional fried chicken.

On Saturday, went to the Jusco Cheras Selatan to buy some stuffs before going to the in laws, as usual. At night, I made cherry+strawberry yogurt ice lollies. Later at night, I steamed cake again. This time, with peanut butter filling. I was stupid not to realize peanut butter is heavy, hence, it sunk right to the bottom. But the cake was good though, moist and soft.

On Sunday, we brought Kz to the pool around 2-3pm for swimming time.


Then, I cooked hokkien mee for dinner. Turned out to be delicious!

Main inredients:
Hokkien noodles - 1 packet
Chicken stock - 1 cup

"Liew" for the noodles
Pork (marinate with corn starch and salt)
Pig liver
Half cabbage / chinese cabbage (I used chinese cabbage)
A few pieces of fish cakes / fish balls (I used both)
Minced pork

Sauce
Oyster sauce - 3 tbsp
Soy sauce - 3 tbsp
Thick black sauce - 1 tbsp
Sesame oil - 1/2 tbsp
Sugar - 1/2 tbsp
Corh starch (mixed with water)
Chicken granules (optional, but I did not use it as I used chicken stock to cook my noodles)

Fry garlic in a pan. Add in pork, minced pork, cabbage, fish cakes and liver. Don't overcook the liver. Scoop aside.
In another pot, braise noodles with chicken stock until noodles is soft. Add in the pre-fried "liew" and sauce, add corn starch, mix until the gravy consistency is right, serve hot.

The 2ww

The moment I am typing this, it's my 2ww (2 week-wait) and 7dpo. My period came on 7th July. Used OPK and tested positive on 19th July (cd13). I have been eating bak-foong pills since this month and bak zhen last month, both at the same time this month, once a week after my period.

BD'ed (baby-danced) on cd13 and 14. Right on cd15 (1dpo), my boobs started to feel sore. My boobs have NEVER felt that way before! Usually, it will only start to sore around 1 week before my period is due. But this time, 1dpo? WTF? Could it be a sign I have conceived? I know it's way too early to tell (I feel like an uneducated fool right now, pregnant at 1dpo, heck, the egg is not even implanted on my uterus yet). I also know the science. It takes a few hours for sperms to travel from the cervix to meet the egg. If conception takes place, it takes another 6-12 days for the egg to implant to the uterus. So, I can only test for pregnancy around 14dpo, ok, 12dpo the earliest. But heck, 1 dpo? I must be so stupid.

1dpo - sore boobs
2dpo - sore boobs
3 dpo - sore boobs
4 dpo - sore boobs
5 dpo - sore boobs
6 dpo - sore boobs
7 dpo (present) - sore boobs, something stuck on my throat when I'm swallowing, sides of my mouth turned blackish

So, there! This 2ww is killing me. By the way, I do not have any pregnancy test strips to pee on, so I pee on ovulation test strips from 3dpo til yesterday! Call me crazy! And yes, I'm a POAS (Pee On A Stick) addict. I've read somewhere that ovulation test stripes can detect LH, as well as HCG (ovulation and pregnancy hormone). So if the ovulation test strip has a double line on it, chances are I might be pregnant now.

Results on my ovulation test strips:
3dpo - faint line
4dpo - faint line
5dpo - lighter faint line (a bit devastated to see the result, but I tell myself, hey, darker lines will start coming back)
6dpo - more light faint line (I'm so feeling f**ked up)
7dpo - I am so going to pee on the stick again tonight

I will buy a pregnancy test kit this Saturday, which is my 9dpo. Ok, why this Saturday and not now if I am that desperate to POAS? Well, that's because Saturday is the day I can go to Jusco to buy household stuffs and groceries, before we visit the in laws. Weekdays from Mon-Fri is always: work, go home, work, go home. Ok, you may ask, no pharmacies around the area I stay? Answer: Yes, there is, but I do not know how to go! Bummer!

Lots of baby dust to myself!

*Updated on 27.07.2012 (8dpo)
7dpo - faint line in OPK. Bloated, nausea and fatigue before bedtime.
8dpo - boobs not as sore, but there is still some sore feeling (feeling f**ked up again). Nausea upon reaching office.

*Updated on 30.07.2012
BFN on 10dpo !! Ok, giving up already.
How come life is so unfair?
How come those who said they don't want anymore child always got pregnant? How come those who said they only want one child always manage to get pregnant with 2nd child? How come those who said they really want a child/want another child don't get it?

I'm contemplating whether or not to delete this post, as it is an eye sore looking at this post everyday.

Another Weekend

Friday night - did not go out for dinner as it was raining. Would not be convenient to go out in a rainy weather with a baby around. Hubs cooked simple bihun soup, that was all (sorry, picture not taken, but yes, my hubs cooks).

Saturday - went to Jusco, Cheras Selatan in the afternoon for some grocery shopping, then headed to the in laws as usual for dinner.

At night, I made blueberry yogurt ice lollies. While that was freezing away, I decided to make a cake. Yes, a cake, just for two. Steamed orange lemon zest cake - my version. Simple and fast since it was just steaming.

Steamed orange lemon zest cake (portion just nice for two)
4 tbsp flour
4 tbsp milk (I used evaporated milk as I still have some leftover sitting in the fridge)
3 tbsp cooking oil/melted butter (I used cooking oil, faster and easier)
1/2 tbsp baking powder
1 egg
3 or 3.5 tbsp of castor sugar
4 tbsp of orange concentrate (I used Sunquick orange concentrate)
Zest of half a lemon
Mix everything together and steam for half an hour. Then you will get a somewhat moist-in-the-middle-cake. Easy peasy! Hubs love it and gave me a 9.5 rating! Where did the 0.5 go? Hubs said it was too sweet. Oh well, yeah, because there were both sugar and Sunquick orange concentrate in the cake.

We had the cake for supper and after that I went to check on my ice lollies. Nope, not set yet. Need to wait til tomorrow to taste it.

Blueberry yogurt ice lollies
1 packet of blueberries (can use any berries or fruits)
Half a cup of plain yogurt
Half a cup of icing sugar
Half tbsp gelatin (melted in hot water)
Blend fruit, yogurt and icing sugar. Mix with gelatin. Put in the lolly mould. Freeze.

Sunday - The naughty boy wokeup at 7am! I wonder whether he gets enough sleep in a day. He seems to sleep so little, sigh. Anyway, my parents came around 9.30am. Left around 11.30am. That little rascal had his milk after they left, and zzz from 11.45pm until 2pm! He must be so tired . After his lunch and some rest, we took him to the pool in the afternoon around 2.30pm. It was his first time going to the pool. We spent about 15 minutes at the pool.

In the evening after Kz wokeup from his nap we went out for dinner. Hubs suggested Korean food. We went to Seoul Fusion in Bukit Jalil. Food was ok. I'm not a fan of Korean food. To me, they are full of veges only such as cucumber, carrots, onions, mushrooms and more mushrooms, taufu, crabsticks, etc.

Anyway, we had beef bulgogi with cheese, seafood sun-dobu soup, seafood fried rice, milk soda and herbal lemon tea. The beef bulgogi was yummy though. I can eat two bowls of white rice with that.

There goes my precious, happy weekend again. Monday soon again, folks!

P/S: I have a lot of work sitting on my desk, from some stupid fools. Mostly from the Biatch and SissyJammy. But I just don't feel like doing any of it.

Biatch @ Work

There's a biatch here that everyone hates dislikes (I am trying to be nicer here), I don't even want to (nick)name her. Everytime she calls or talks to me, my blood will creep up to my face, boiling hot, and I will feel like chopping off her mouth (especially), her limbs, then blend it in front of her and serve her, alive! Who does she think she is? Talks like a taukeh soh, babe! Puh-leese. Noone talks to me like that, ok? Not even my superior or the boss that pays my salary. She talks like I am stupid. She talks like I don't know my work. She talk's like she's the madam and I'm the maid, get what I mean? OMFG.

Weird I didn't have this feeling back then, only started recently. Back then, I had no problem with her. Really. Why now? What's the issue? OMFG, I hope she slips one day while walking or climbing up/down the stairs and lose her two front rabbit teeth - permanently!

You know, I am a nice person. At work. Ask them. Ask the boys here who face me daily. Ok, occasionally mean with my words, spicy and a cili padi, but in a joking way. They can accept my style and they like who I am - the cute girl who doesn't look like she's 30, who is straight forward, direct and not a fake. And I am good at my work. I am effective. Efficient. Fast. Ask anyone here, I am begging you. So, if I can be so poison with my mouth on that particular person, then that person must be a real biatch until I cannot tolerate anymore. I hope she burns in hell.

See, told you I can be mean.

A Happy Weekend

Started with Friday evening after work. Hubs brought us to this Taiwan restaurant at Serdang. Don't really know the exact address is as I'm not familiar with that area. The restaurant's name is Happy Wok. Food was so-so, nothing to shout about. But I'm just happy because I can eat out and go out kai kai a bit, hehe. Kz was not really cooperative as he kept climbing out from the hi-chair and we had to swallow our food and take turns to watch over him.


On Saturday afternoon I made a mini chocolate cake, just enough for two. Again it was a bit tough and firm but at least this time it didn't look so much like kuih texture. I did not put any chocolate chips as I was worried it won't turn out well. But luckily it tasted a-ok and we finished it.

Then we went to my parent's place in the evening and left Kz there while we went for dinner, Samosa. We dined there at least once a week when it was newly opened few years ago. But after having Kz and moving out from my parent's place, needless to say, we did not go there anymore. The lady boss surprisingly still recognize us and asked about us. (pictures not taken).



On Sunday morning we went to Sunway Pyramid. Kz was already asleep in the car on the way to Pyramid. Surprisingly he did not wakeup when we put him inside the stroller upon reaching. So we hurried to Delicious restaurant for brunch (11am). Food was good, I had nothing to complaint!

We went to Daiso after lunch and Kz wokeup when I was halfway shopping. You know, I could spend the whole day in Daiso. But end up I only spent about 5 minutes there to get what I wanted in a jiffy. Bought some measuring cups, ramekins, ice lollies maker and a lemon juicer. Then hubs went to Cold Storage to buy some household stuff while I stayed outside with Kz to feed him his porridge. Lastly I managed to go into Nichii, grabbed a couple of dresses without trying and quickly paid as Kz was getting restless.

Went home at 1.30pm, did the usual routine stuff (lap badan for Kz, change him into a new set of clothes,  play, make him zzz). And guess what, instead of napping with him (which I usually do), I made a cake again! Chocolate coffee cake this time, with some instant coffee mix added, portion just for 2, since I bought some cute ramekins from Daiso and can't wait to use it. Oooh, made ice lollies with coke and ice cream soda, too (pictures not taken). Then we had steamboat for dinner (at home). My all time favorite.

But all good things come to an end. Its going to be Monday soon. Sigh. Monday blue :(

I Love Sundays

I love Sundays. Who doesn't? But I also hate Sundays as well, because the next day will be my Monday blue! Anyway, Sunday is our no-rice day because we have been eating rice from Monday-Saturday. So on Sunday usually we will either: have steamboat/ tapau dai chau/ fry mee/ boil tongsui/ make a cake.

P/S: We seldom eat out after having Kz as it will be very inconvenient. He will be restless after a while and we won't be able to eat in peace. Everything has to be fast with Kz around: shopping, eating, etc.

Anyway I made 3 things today: Steamed banana chocolate chip raisin cake, fried black pepper udon and red bean tongsui (picture not taken).

Steamed banana chocolate chip raisin cake:
2 ripe bananas-mashed
1 cup all purpose flour
1/4 cup icing sugar
1 teaspoon oil
2 teaspoon water
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 packet of raisins (I used Ligo)
A handful of choc chips (I used Hershey's)
Mix everything together, steam for 20 mins or when fork comes out clean.
Tips: Cover top with aluminium foil and coat bottom with fluor+butter as it will be easier to take out.

Fried udon with black pepper sauce:
1 packet udon mee (I used Megah brand)
1 bell pepper
1 big onion
3 cloves garlic
Pork (sau yoke)
Minced meat
Sausages (optional) or any other stuff that's in the fridge
1 packet of black pepper sos (any brand, I used a pre mixed brand written all over in Thai and it's very "yeh mei")
Boil udon and follow packet instructions. In another wok fry all the ingredients. Scoop aside (I scooped aside because my wok is not big enuff to handle all the "liew" and udon). Lastly fry garlic (love lots of it), mix with black pepper sos, toss in the boiled udon and the pre fried ingredients (that has been scooped out earlier). Serve hot.

No big deal I know. The cake looks like kuih (I think I put too much flour) and fried udon is a common dish, it is all about the sauce mix. Nothing to hoo haa about, but heck, who cares. As long as I have done my duties as a wife (cook dinner, made cakes, boil tongsui and hubby is happy & eats my food).